The Results Are In

Hey You,

So I spent Wednesday morning gallivanting around this little humid island we call home. I had my doctor’s appointment on the Wednesday morning and I decided to bring Mr. Man with me. If you remember my previous post, we couldn’t have a serious conversation about sex without him breaking out into laughter.

That’s right, the man I married is still a boy at heart.

Dr. C. went through the results of my blood test clearly with me. The good news was that I tested negative for diabetes, which has worried me because it is quite present in my family’s medical history. That’s one complication I don’t want right now!

So Dr. C. proceeded to tell me about my hormone levels. I had to come in at specific times during my last menstrual cycle to draw blood for the test. Unfortunately, Mr Man and I tried to have a baby in vain this month. I did not ovulate.

Dr. C. then went through what other procedure we could go through to test why I wasn’t ovulating. It just so happens that on the day of my appointment was the 7th day into my current cycle and it was perfect to have a Hysterosalpingogram Scan (HSG). This is to check and see if my fallopian tubes were blocked or not which may be the causes of me not ovulating. Because the hospital I was at didn’t have a female doctor to scan me, I had to go to another hospital which was a short drive away. I just don’t even want to go there with a male doctor unless I really, really, really have to. I’m a shy like that!

It’s not the most comfortable scan…in fact, it felt like I was having menstrual cramps while they were doing the test. It’s like an extended pap smear but you have to wriggle from left to right to get a scan image done for each fallopian tube.  I certainly was glad it was over!

The doctor who did the scan happily told me that my tubes were clear! I was happy that they were.

However…

I was disappointed…but then, my disappointment became sadness. All the what if’s started to pop up in my head.

• What if I never ovulate?
• What if I don’t have any eggs to ovulate and make babies?
• What if our relationship won’t be able to withstand this test?
• What if I have to adopt?

So many what if’s…Mr Man started to get agitated with my what if’s. He became stressed out from all my doubts. Which woman wouldn’t think such things? We are natural worriers, aren’t we?

Dr. C. then brought up the question that I dreaded to Mr Man…”Would you do a sperm test?” Heh…I didn’t look at Mr Man when Dr. C. Asked him the dreaded question. He said he would…so off we went with a plastic container in hand…home…he wasn’t prepared to get it done there and then. Dr. C. understood, she said to him, “You’re not mentally prepared to give a sample now,” and Mr. Man replied with a chuckle, “Yeah.”

So he got through the doctor’s appointment with me without breaking out into laughter as Dr. C. drew the cervix on the piece of paper. I was impressed, let me tell you that!

What saddened me was when Dr. C. started to explain the “other” procedures we could go through if natural conception was going to be difficult. I just didn’t want to go there, I always hoped that I could conceive naturally and I still do hope, it’s still early days.

Some of the options could risk my health and some could really cost a lot of money too.

My next appointment with Dr. C. will be next Wednesday and we’ll get the results back from the sperm test. Mr. Man and I have already decided to try naturally for the next 6 months before we commit to any procedures or medication.

I didn’t know that making a baby would be so stressful!

oxox,
S.